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Gabi Clayton's Guestbook #56 - From 2/23/05 to 5/20/05
Note: This guestbook reads from the bottom of the page up. -- Gabi
| Wednesday,
May 18, 2005 12:04:15 PM |
| Name: |
Gabe Steckline |
| E-Mail: |
gabe_steckline@yahoo.com |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
that storie
touch me people should not judge the way people are
becouse we are all humans |
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Wednesday, May 18, 2005 1:58:40 AM |
| Name: |
Jesus
Canizales |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
It makes me
sick to my stomach. How can people be so cruel and evil.
Why are they so afraid off. My thoughts goes to the
family. We should all do something about it so this
won't happen again as little as it could be it makes a
difference. |
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005 9:00:50 PM |
| Name: |
Megan Stettner |
| E-Mail: |
pixie14g@aol.com |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I am an active
memeber in the high school Gay Straight Allinace club,
and although it is not much, i am always working day to
day for people to except diffrences in our fellow man. I
found Bills story inspiring and tragic, and i am
greatful you have shared it with me |
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005 12:30:18 AM |
| Name: |
cin rey |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
you are
supported by me |
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Saturday, May 14, 2005 7:24:52 PM |
| Name: |
JGA |
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| Location: |
Canada |
| Comments: |
It is
truly sickening that your
son was attacked because he was bisexual. Sadly I must
say this is a reality. People will look for resons to
hurt others. His bisexuality hurt nobody and still
people had to consern themselves with it and make
problems for him. Truly discusting how our society can
look down upon the homosexual population. Even though I
am not part of that group I can understand their
suffering. |
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Saturday, May 14, 2005 5:19:15 AM |
| Name: |
Braden Rico |
| E-Mail: |
ricobraden@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Taiwan |
| Comments: |
I found your
web site one lazy Saturday afternoon while looking or
nothing in particular. I have to tell you that the story
of your son's life and death moved me very much. I want
to speak out more against hate crimes and against
intollerance and stupidity. I am so sorry for your loss
and anyone can surely see that Bill Clayton was a
wonderful, beautiful, young man. I am tired of sitting
back and letting people like you do the work that needs
to be done in every dark corner of the globe. We have to
lift up the lighted candle wherever we are. Thank you
for producing this meaningful website. |
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Thursday, May 12, 2005 6:14:25 AM |
| Name: |
David Banks |
| E-Mail: |
david_banks121@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
Hey, I was
harrased yesterday by a bunch of ppl. They were sayin
that gaywauds shouldn't be a United States Academic
Academy Award Winner. Just because I am talented they r
calling me a fag. I think they r jealous because they
didn't get it. I lied when I said I came out because I
havnt told my family but I have told my peers. It is
tuff u no and I dont have a boyfriend 2 talk 2 so this
sucks! Oh and gabi i am srry he committed suicide
because I am thinkin about it! |
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Wednesday, May 11, 2005 1:17:36 AM |
| Name: |
Sherie |
| E-Mail: |
vancouver_2005_bc@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
Canada |
| Comments: |
I just wanted
to say I am really sorry for the loss of your son. I
really hope that hate crimes will fade away, and people
can move on with their lives regardless of their sexual
orientation. May Bill rest in peace. |
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Tuesday, May 10, 2005 12:41:49 PM |
| Name: |
kala baker |
| E-Mail: |
donnah37@yahoo.com |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I am so sorry
that you lost your son to suicide. I lost my cousine to
suicide just this month |
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Monday, May 09, 2005 5:18:45 PM |
| Name: |
Ana |
| E-Mail: |
justsayozzy@pop.com.br |
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| Location: |
Brazil |
| Comments: |
I will never
forget Bill(may 08,1995)today is may 09 2005, 10 years
later...God bless you Bill, and all your family... |
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Sunday, May 08, 2005 8:56:56 PM |
| Name: |
Steve |
| E-Mail: |
stevejellis@msn.com |
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| Location: |
United Kingdom |
| Comments: |
To Bill's
family and friends, i've just read your story and i'm so
gutted, I experienced the same problem in school but
fortunately I came through only to find one of the
bullies from school now works at the same factory as me
now, i've had a few confrontations with a group of them
calling me all names even pinching money from me at our
works cash point but i'm not going to let them win!!
I've not told anyone in work or even my parents as they
are just as homophobic but I relay on my boyfriend (of
3yrs last week!) and my close friends to help me through
the tough times if only Bill had gone a few more years
and found someone he loved then maybe h would still be
here with you guys, i'm so sorry for your loss love from
Chester, England x |
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Saturday, May 07, 2005 7:36:42 PM |
| Name: |
Kody |
| E-Mail: |
cythlin@gmail.com |
| Homepage: |
http://www.cythlin.com |
| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
Bill's story
is one of the many which keeps me fighting. I identify
with what he went through, although it's been awhile
since I was a victim of harassment. Since then I've
gained a lot of friends, a lot of training in self
defense, and a lot of the respecr of my peers. Being in
such a safe place, however, does not cause me to forget
that others are not so fourtionate. I have a lot of
ideas, and I write essays about gay culture and what can
be done to help those pople not as fourtionate as I am.
Furthermore, I embody those essays, and it's stories
like this that justify to myself every effort taken to
releive the burdon some kids suffer just for trying to
exist as they are every day. Bill's story, and others,
have inspired a lot of thinking, as well as a lot of
anger with the way things are. I am not the kind to sit
idle while things are not right, and I'd like to thank
you for making this public and giving me yet another
reason to fight for what I believe in. This cannot be
allowed to continue.
A few of the articles I've written on the subject are at
http://www.cythlin.com/radical. Once again, thank you
for being an inspiration on a variaty of subjects.
~Kody |
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Saturday, May 07, 2005 9:09:25 AM |
| Name: |
Holly |
| E-Mail: |
quiet.summer.shade@gmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Australia |
| Comments: |
I write to you
with tears streaking down my cheeks.
I'm holly, I'm 16, live in Australia and I'm gay.
I'm only a year younger then Bill was when he died.
Bills story did touch me, as does all storys of this
nature. I am lucky you see, I am subjected to very
little open homophobia. I'm not sure what I'm trying to
say here, mainly that this proves more then ever that
homophobia has NOT gone away. It is everywhere.
However, its not just the open kind that is around, as
you showed in the part about the lions club.
Wherever and what ever it is it must be fought.
Also, I have never seen a recount of someones life
written with more love or more respect then Bill's.
It is obvious you truly loved him and from what I read,
I can see why.
peace
Holly |
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Saturday, May 07, 2005 2:28:49 AM |
| Name: |
Valerie |
| E-Mail: |
valliegirl@gmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I'm so very
sorry for your loss. You've turned it into something
amazing though, keeping his memory alive through this
website and working for the cause. You're a wonderful
and amazing mother. I'm certain Bill's very proud of
you. |
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Friday, May 06, 2005 9:29:44 PM |
| Name: |
Marcus Tozini |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
It's great to see all the support you guys are giving to
those kids out there who are suffering the same pressure
and pain as Bill.
keep up the good fight, never give up. as Bill lives in
our hopes of a better world where gays and straights
will live in peace with one another. |
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i
have read many memorils in the past few weeks and created an artcle to
help. i deeply for you lost and hope this can help
MY ADVISE FOR PEOPLE THINKING
SUICIDE
In the past few days I have read many online memorials on people that have
committed suicide. These people who have created these web sights are those
who are the grieving parents, siblings, relatives, and friends. They have
told memories of the loved one, pictures from a baby up to the final picture
taken; they took video images and even voice recorder. These people are
grieving making their loved one known to the world because they saw in there
loved ones what they them selves couldn't see.
If you are having ideas of suicide thinking just takes a moment and look at
the pros and cons of suicide. Here I can help with that there is only one
pro and one hundred cons ill list a few
Pro- you don't have to
deal with whatever problem you are dealing with.
Cons- 1. it hurts the ones that love you
2. It doesn't resolve
the problem
3. It spreads pain
4. It destroys your
purpose on earth
Every one has a reason to be here
Or god wouldn't have put you here
These grieving people that I'm
talking about lost their loved ones and don't even know why saying what did
we do wrong or if I only knew or why didn't he or she come and talk, to me.
Some place blame on them selves, or on other things.
Some of these victims that decided to take their lives are 11
12 13 kids young teens and pre teens for what ever decided to take their
life because they thought unworthy.
Now you're thinking no one
loves me no one understands me, I feel alone, I hate myself, and I can't do
anything good. That's bull
You are loved, you are understood, and you're definitely not alone.
Here let me explain if it was true that these people committing
suicide were useless to this world then why are their memorials if they were
indeed worthless why not just forget them blow them off. Why not, why not
because they were loved they were worthy.
These people had potential just like you have, but
they couldn't se it before it was to late but unlike them your alive you
have a choice now you can either end it all and become like them see it to
late or, live your life like every wants you to. Just remember you are
worthy you are loved and you are special.
Now you're thinking who the heck are you. You have known problems you can
never feel my pain. Unfortunately in the 19 years on this earth I had a lot
of problems. Taken from my biological mother at 3 because who, like you
thought suicide was the answer and attempted it many times. That didn't stop
me from loving her. Tell you truth I had to tell her to get out of my life
at 12 because she was hurting her self-physically and hurting me
emotionally. I was lonely and unaccepted at school bullied teased and much
more.
Yes I felt angry and alone but I never took suicide for option
because I've seen my potential I seen my talent and what I can do alive I
had a reason like you to live.
If you're second-guessing me please
read books on true stories. Ill lists some for you that i've read.
Books written by the authors
David Pelzler
Jodi Blanco
Torey Hayden
And so many others these people either witness or were in troubled situation
themselves and they did wonderful things with their lives.
Besides reading talk to
friends family parents. If your not sure these people cant help you then
seek profeshional help and for teens do tell your parents they can only do
half the work. You see on TV for parents to ask but they can ask to their
blue in the face you need to answer. Remember once again your not alone you
never are never will be and never going to be.
Just remember
the ones that have done it already. Read those memorials and see that they
all had something in common they were talented writer's athletes and poets
could write songs care for the people around them except themselves.
In the end I'm saying if
you're thinking of killing your self don't.
You have loved ones and some one out there will be crushed and hurt
and confused if you do it.
I want to take the time to thank the love ones for letting me read the
memorials and the one most important person you the reader.
For those that don't know me and
most of those don't.
My
name is
Michael
James Bogdanowits
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Thursday, May 05, 2005 3:46:18 PM |
| Name: |
Christy |
| E-Mail: |
libra_cc73@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United Kingdom |
| Comments: |
Coming upto
the anniversary of your beloved son's death, I just want
to send you my love and best wishes. Your son Bill
sounds like an amazing young man. I wish life had been
kinder to him. *hugs* |
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Thursday, May 05, 2005 6:35:45 AM |
| Name: |
David Banks |
| E-Mail: |
david_banks121@yahoo.com |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
hi, i am in
Jacksonville North Carolina. I hav cum out that i was
gay at the age of 13. The students give me crap and this
sight has helped. |
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Wednesday, May 04, 2005 2:55:33 PM |
| Name: |
Jean Dupuy |
| E-Mail: |
jeandupuy2@gmail.com |
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| Location: |
France |
| Comments: |
je suis
shocké, je vi la vie de façon a decouvrir tous els jou
jusqu'ou lêtre humain est capable d'arriver...
l'histoire m'a touché tres fort. |
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Wednesday, May 04, 2005 2:51:57 PM |
| Name: |
Tosha
Edwardson |
| E-Mail: |
sweetestsent16@aol.com |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
i have a
brother that is gay and it would kill me if i ever found
out that he felt like he was being pushed to do anything
of that sort. I am so sorry about bill.
Take care
Tosha Edwrdson |
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Tuesday, May 03, 2005 8:01:34 PM |
| Name: |
Anonymous |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I came across
this site while researching gay hate crimes . I am
touched by Bill's story, and being bisexual myself i
know what it feels like to feel as if nobody
understands. In a world where many people are more
open-minded you would think that everyone could get
along, regardless of sexuality. I will not come out to
my family, because I am afraid they will look at me
differently and they are not very understanding. I only
hope anyone who finds out will accept me for who I am. I
am sorry you had to experience a tragedy of this degree,
but I am glad you wrote about this and are trying to
make the whole world aware. Thank you for what you have
done, and may God bless you and keep you. |
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Tuesday, May 03, 2005 12:02:21 AM |
| Name: |
George |
| E-Mail: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I pray that
the day soon comes when the people in our world can find
can a way to show each other the Care,Love and Respect
each one of us deserves.
I am sorry for your loss. |
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Monday, May 02, 2005 4:25:17 PM |
| Name: |
Mark Frazier |
| E-Mail: |
abeartrap@aol.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I am so sorry
about the way things ended. I am a suicide surviver
myself. It is horrible that people can not step out of
the box and accept others the way they are. First, I am
human, second, I am a man, third I am gay. Everyone
should love others as human first. |
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Monday, May 02, 2005 2:04:19 PM |
| Name: |
andi |
| E-Mail: |
ezechukwuai@osd.wednet.edu |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
wow that is an
amazing story I'm very sorry for your loss I myself am
openly Bi-sexual and although most of my friends are
excepting there are still people in 2005 that are filled
with ignorance. again I'm sorry about your son but thank
you very much for sharing your story. |
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Monday, May 02, 2005 11:45:29 AM |
| Name: |
Princess Brian |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
Dear Bill's
Familey
I came across your website while doing a research paper
in school. I am doing a paper on Homophobia and its
effects on society. I am out and would like to put this
story in my paper. |
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Monday, May 02, 2005 8:26:17 AM |
| Name: |
Stephanie |
| E-Mail: |
bratty_american@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I just wanted
to tell you thanks for your website.It is very
informative.Im so sorry for your loss.I have friends who
are bi-sexual and lesbian and they have also experienced
hate.Although none of them have committed suicide,i have
a cousin who did at the age of 20 due to depression.It
hurts the whole family and the pain seems to never
end.Thanks for your good work here with the site. |
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Monday, May 02, 2005 12:36:04 AM |
| Name: |
Shelley Lynn |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
Thanks for
sharing Bill's story. I know it is tough to loose a son
but it is strength like yours to help others. Thanks for
all you have done.
Shelley Lynn
Renton, WA |
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Sunday, May 01, 2005 12:37:56 PM |
| Name: |
Cocksucking
Homo |
| E-Mail: |
stdsinmyass@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
Bermuda |
| Comments: |
Die fag die |
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Saturday, April 30, 2005 1:23:43 AM |
| Name: |
Devin |
| E-Mail: |
bassman.dev@gmail.com |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I am very
sorry for the loss of your son, he sounds like he was a
wonderful man. I too went through a lot of torment and
abuse at the hands of classmates when I was his age, and
I too attempted suicide. Looking back on my life since,
I am glad I failed. I only wish you didn't have to
suffer that loss. |
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005 6:00:13 PM |
| Name: |
Crystal |
| E-Mail: |
canderson86_05@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I just want to
thank you for putting Bill's story on the web. I hope
everyone will get over the whole homophobia thing and
just accept it.
Bill's story inspired me to write a paper so i hope you
dont mid if you'd like i could send it to you. I'm truly
sorry for your loss.
Sincerly,
-Crystal |
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005 6:12:31 AM |
| Name: |
Jorge Janeiro |
| E-Mail: |
jorge.janeiro@skynet.be |
| Homepage: |
http://spaces.msn.com/members/lusobelga |
| Location: |
Belgium |
| Comments: |
Thank you for
this web site and for allowings us, virtual strangers,
to share in what was such a devastating and painful
moment in your life. It is hard to accept that in our
day and age people, young and old, are dying because of
homophobia - be it directly or indirectly. I can only
hope that as a new generation rises up, that this sort
of crime will decline. I wish you peace and all the
best. Jorge Janeiro, Belgium |
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005 9:57:39 PM |
| Name: |
Danielle Hurst |
| E-Mail: |
anyellah@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I am a
freshman at chadron state college where a young man was
practically ran out of the area for his sexual
orientation. i found out about this and your sons story
by doing research for a policy speech here about how
sexual orientation should be included here at chadron in
our policy booklet under discrimination. i am not sure
if it would be harder to live with the secret of being
gay or live with the fact of harassment from being gay.
i am sorry for your loss and his story is great. it is
good you had a community that supported you so well.
unlike here in 2005 where sexual orientation is still
not in the books as a reason against hate. |
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005 8:38:43 PM |
| Name: |
Brian Stanfill |
| E-Mail: |
brianstanfill@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I appreciate
the time you've taken to write about Bill. These stories
are all too unheard of while the events that they
remember are not. The more we speak up, the more we will
be heard. Thanks again.
Brian Stanfill
Palmer, Alaska |
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005 2:51:12 PM |
| Name: |
Rhian owen |
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| Location: |
United Kingdom |
| Comments: |
Im so sorry to
hear about the loss of your son but i am glad that you
have shared it with me.you have taught me to value what
i have and not to take my friends or family for
granted.The support you were shown was nothing compared
to what you deserve. As God said we are all equals. I
don't understand how some people can think that Bill was
different from anyone else. I f I had known Bill, I
would have felt honoured. His death will not be in vain
as so many will learn from it.and to the person that
thinks his suffering is more important than the
suffering of others:this is a site in the memory of Bill
not you.you should honour his memory and atleast
consider what this group of people have been through.
Angi and friends, I offer you the full amount of support
that i have. My thoughts are wiht you and i hope it will
all turn out ok for you and your family. ******x |
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Monday, April 18, 2005 4:46:51 PM |
| Name: |
Poolagirl |
| E-Mail: |
poolagirl@aol.com |
| Homepage: |
http://poolagirl.diaryland.com |
| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I just read
through some of this incredible website, and I applaud
you for what you are doing. I can only imagine the pain
you felt when you lost your son. His brief life is still
teaching to many lessons to so many people. Bless you
all. |
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005 10:09:57 PM |
| Name: |
regina |
| E-Mail: |
reginiux77@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
Mrs. Clayton,
today at school I watched a video in which you came out
telling Bill's Story to a group of kids. His story has
moved me so much I nearly cried in front of everyone.
This shook me all day, I just had to know the entire
story. I did not catch his name but aftersome time in
the internet i finally found your website and it has
inspired me so much and motivates me even more to help.
I am glad to know that my entire school ditrict watched
that video today. Thank You for helping start the
beginning of what will hopefully be the end of hate
crimes. |
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005 10:00:52 PM |
| Name: |
gabi ahmed |
| E-Mail: |
achanfari@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Morocco |
| Comments: |
Dear Gabi,
By looking to find my half brother and sister messing
since 1957 (my father's first marriage);I learn about
your tragedy which I had knowldge when I was in New
York...
My tragedy it's more worse...because I am poor and Had a
Ph.d in Nuclear physics ..I was arrested by FBI via
INS.I had same abuse that Abu ghairib Prisoners in Iraq
had...No because I am Insurgent or terrorist but because
the FBI want me to spy for them inside American
Universities...When I refuse I had right to humiliation,
abuse, 93 days in Middlesex county Jail in New Jersey
and after than deportation...
But what was heating me that at 26 Federal Plaza (10th
Floor) in New york some FBI and INS agents whose origin
is jew were more vulnerable ...How come that the sons of
people which their history full of dramas and tragedies
forget that fact?.by writing to senator Hillary Clinton
and congresswoman Nancy Pelosi I was
"Liberated" IN 22 April 2003 but until now I
have no answer to my complaints... This is what Alexis
de Tocqueville called the tyranny of majority..And many
Americans,specialy the Jews between then the Love of the
sacred Dollars let them forget the essential in history
...Today is Bill or Gabi tomorrow is their turn..Hitler
in 1933 stared with communists and finished with jews...
I think all minorities in Anerica if they not stand up
to save their rights and the rights of others minorities
tomorrow they will make same mistakes Like in 1933, 1450
in spain, under the romains and in Egypt in time of
Moise.. What history teachs us that the voice of hate
can easy find they courties : Yesterday it was Hitler,
today is Bush, Ramsfield, Cheney, Paul wolfitz etc...
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Monday, April 11, 2005 8:08:22 PM |
| Name: |
Teresa |
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| Location: |
New Zealand |
| Comments: |
Thank you for
sharing your story of your late son. I am currently
working on a university assignment on suicide prevention
and this is how I have found your site. I can understand
part of your loss, having lost two cousins recently to
suicide. Thanks again and God Bless :) |
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Saturday, April 09, 2005 7:04:34 PM |
| Name: |
Renee |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I am very
sorry about your son Bill and how he suffered. I hope
one day more people will be tolerant and understanding
and pass no jugdement on others. Looking for the gifts
in others is much more interesting and pleasant. The
issue of one being gay or not, I believe there are
studies starting to show that in a gay person, there are
malformities in the brain. I wish you and your family
peace and happiness in the future. God Bless. RJL |
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005 11:00:18 PM |
| Name: |
Patricia
Daigle |
| E-Mail: |
wmirthnow@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
God Bless you
all! |
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005 12:59:28 PM |
| Name: |
Rainer |
| E-Mail: |
raba123athotmaildotcom |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Germany |
| Comments: |
Ich bin
zutiefst erschüttert, daß sich Ihr lieber Sohn Bill
aus Gründen einer homophoben Gesellschaft umgebracht
hat. Es ist unglaublich! Wie sehr müssen Sie darunter
leiden. Nichts und niemand kann Ihnen Ihren Sohn
zurückbringen. Ich möchte Ihnen mein ganzes Mitgefühl
ausdrücken und mitteilen, wie sehr mich seine
Geschichte anrührte. Ich empfinde tiefe Trauer für
Ihren Sohn und auch Ihre Familie. Ebenso empfinde ich
tiefe Wut auf Menschen, die andere Menschen nicht so
leben lassen können, wie sie sind. Unsere Gesellschaft
muß noch viel lernen und immer wieder aufs Neue muß
man sich in Erinnerung rufen, daß besonders
Minderheiten unter besonderen Schutz einer staatlichen
Gesellschaft gestellt werden müssen.
Gerne würde ich Ihnen Trost spenden zum Verlust von
Bill, obgleich ich weiß, daß nichts und niemand Sie
richtig trösten kann. Trotzdem möchte ich Sie und Ihre
Familie in Gedanken ganz fest umarmen und drücken und
mitteilen, daß Sie nicht alleine sind und es sicher
viele Menschen gibt, die an Ihrem Schicksal teilhaben
und mit Ihnen trauern und auch weinen.
Liebe Grüße aus Deutschland nach Amerika, Rainer |
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005 12:19:02 PM |
| Name: |
Brian Johnson |
| E-Mail: |
heavyb5@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
Gabi,
I just read the story of your son "Bill", and
I just wanted to say how sorry I am he was taken away
from you, your husband, his brother, and his friends.
Maybe, one of these days we all can live together as one
race, and not be judgemental of other.
Sincerly, Brian Johnson |
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005 11:00:52 PM |
| Name: |
Richard |
| E-Mail: |
quietman53@comcast.net |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
To Bill:
How does one begin? How does one begin to write a letter
to you to describe the feelings of being rejected and
hated for just simply being what God had intended for
you? But you know this. And I can't write that letter to
you. I don't think that many people can understand what
it's like until they have walked that mile in our shoes.
Bill, I know that you've seen the out pouring of love,
well wishes and support over what your friends and
family have given rise to. You've simply inspired us to
do something about the hate that exists out there. You
didn't have this planned, but you have made a difference
in this world. I'm a writer who has dedicated his life
to stopping the homophobic ignorance out there. Thank
you so very much for being who you are and to your
parents for being the loving human beings that they are. |
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005 12:33:29 PM |
| Name: |
pellie kirton |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
God bless you! |
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Sunday, April 03, 2005 2:48:21 PM |
| Name: |
Alison |
| E-Mail: |
missalibrown |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Canada |
| Comments: |
I hope
everythingis going ok with the patching of your life. He
will always be apart of it and I know from reading this
site he will be apart of many. Your site is absoulutly
beautiful and with that he will nevr be forgotten. |
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Sunday, April 03, 2005 12:35:30 PM |
| Name: |
sandra . |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United Kingdom |
| Comments: |
your story
touched me. I have a 16 year old son and I do not know
how I would cope if anything like this should happen to
him. |
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Saturday, April 02, 2005 11:57:22 AM |
| Name: |
Dana |
| E-Mail: |
t_sax03@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I was very
touched by Bill's Story, and I'm very sorry for all the
pain him and your family went through. I support the
homosexual, bisexual, transgendered, etc community. I
feel we should all be able to live in peace, and
hopefully one day that may happen. |
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Thursday, March 31, 2005 6:21:06 PM |
| Name: |
maria
catherine callahan |
| E-Mail: |
etheldiesel@msn.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
Thank you for
sharing the story of your son's short life. I have been
looking for a place on-line to direct a friend who is
gay, bipolar and 22 y/o and feels he has no one to talk
to.
This link came up.
I lost both parents at the age of 28. I understand the
importance of family and of loss. I also understand that
one's relationship to a loved one who has passed never
ends.
I see how much you love and respect your son. Thank you,
Maria
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Thursday, March 31, 2005 3:16:02 PM |
| Name: |
Bianca |
| E-Mail: |
lilbabeebia@aol.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
wow, im really
sorry you and your family had to go through such a
thing, i wish you and your family the best. i came
across this site by doing a search on google, 'hate
crimes agianst gays', because im doing a religion
project on homophobia and im using your story in my
report if thats okay with you. also i have to do 5 hours
of community service involving homophobia and if you
have any ideas on how i can do that, please contact me
at: lilbabeebia@aol.com.
i would love to hear from you(or anyone) because im in
10 grade at our lady of victory academy and i need all
the help i can get because i've never been through some
of the things you had to go through, or anyone else whos
reading this,
thank you,
Bianca |
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Thursday, March 31, 2005 11:14:18 AM |
| Name: |
Joyce |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Netherlands |
| Comments: |
Homophobia
makes me feel so sad. Being bisexual myself, I know of
the looks, the laughing, the lack of understanding (or
the will to understand)... luckily not the assaults,
though.
I wish you and your family the very best and I think
it's very brave of you to have told this story to the
world. But you are right, the world needs to know. |
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Thursday, March 31, 2005 9:55:34 AM |
| Name: |
Anne |
| E-Mail: |
witchannie1@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
www.geocities.com/witchannie1/ellen_degeneres.html |
| Location: |
Netherlands |
| Comments: |
Dear Gabi,
I received the link to Bill's Story from a friend of
mine, Claire, and it shocked me.
Being a Dutch Lesbian Wiccan this realy scares me!
Because things like this happen, not just in the States
but all over the world. Even here, not far from the
capital Amsterdam, I have to hide my sexuality and my
Religeon. Even here, especially in surten neighbourhoods
you have to be carefull what you say or do.
Your Bill, you and your family are stronger than anyone
I know. All of you should be an example to the rest of
the world on how we should act and react.
I will mention Bill in my Wiccan rituals to the Gods and
I will pray for you and yours. For health and strenght.
With Love and support,
Annie |
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Wednesday, March 30, 2005 1:15:32 PM |
| Name: |
Rebecca |
| E-Mail: |
boo41142@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
first if i
could i would like to say i am very gratefull that you
as a mother would put up this story about your son my
friend geoffery is bisexual and i would never want
anything like that to happen him i also have a gay
cousin and a gay uncle i think it doesnt matter if your
are bisexual or not i also wanted to say i am a suicidal
teen and im also a cutter thank you for putting this up
it really made me think |
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005 9:56:21 PM |
| Name: |
laura m |
| E-Mail: |
showinudown@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
this story is
very touching we are studing hate crimes in sociology. i
want you to know that what happened to your son is very
horrible and needs to stop i admimre your strenght in
this situation laura m |
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005 7:45:28 PM |
| Name: |
Claire |
| E-Mail: |
i_love_alanis@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United Kingdom |
| Comments: |
Hi, just read
your story about your son and i feel very touched by it,
he must have been so brave and i feel so sad knowing
homophobia led him to suicide. I am a 17 year old
lesbian and feel so lucky because i am "out"
to all my friends and have been accepted and so far have
not suffered anything like your son did. However, it
doesn't make me feel any better as i know that people
like Bill were not as forunate, these hate crimes are
still frequent and it makes me sick to know people get
away with it. I admire you for being so supportive to
your son and for standing up for others like him. Claire
x :) |
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Saturday, March 26, 2005 7:04:39 AM |
| Name: |
Roger |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
Bill's Story
truly touched me!
I am an openly Gay man, quite old in fact; but still
able to feel the pain of Bill...
I too suffered when growing up due to the bigots out
there who made our lives unsuffrable.
I was drafted into the military after college and agreed
to make it a career; but doing so behind my "Hidden
Secret"! I was Gay!!
I hid that fact for over 20 years, received countless
top awards and flew jet aircraft in defense of my
country. I also retired with an honorable discharge.
See how so many of us contribute....silently most of the
time without kudo's "because we are gay"; no
but because we are just human beings.
We did NOT choose our sexuality; no it was
pre-determined before birth...but noone can see that.
God help all those haters out there who could make so
many lives so much better with just acceptance....we
don't want love; but just being accepted for who we are
and left alone to pursue our lifes' goals would be
sufficient for us.
Please pray for all the other Bills out there and young
women too who go through the same thing!
God Bless the family for enduring this tragedy of life
and death!
Thank you Bill for helping to make paths easier for
those you left behind!
Roger |
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Friday, March 25, 2005 12:19:20 PM |
| Name: |
Adrian
Calderon |
| E-Mail: |
calderon2005@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I read this
story regarding your son, and I must say that as a
gradute student preparing to counsel gay and lesbian
youths, this narrative has inspired me to educate others
on hate crimes against LGBT people. I made short film on
LGVT victims and in I included a small narrative on your
son. I'm hoping this will enable other graduate students
to become aware of the struggles that GLBT people every
waking day. I wish you strength for you and your family.
I will not be silent.
A.C. |
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Friday, March 25, 2005 12:10:27 PM |
| Name: |
John |
| E-Mail: |
knnyjnny@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Malaysia |
| Comments: |
My eye were
full with tear after knowing Bill's story,it hard for me
to accept it,I'm also a gay who are facing the same
problem with Bill and many times think of suicide.Just a
small prayer for Bill,"May God give Bill a new life
in another planet
that is more love" |
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Thursday, March 24, 2005 4:23:55 PM |
| Name: |
Yves T. |
| E-Mail: |
sephy_firangel@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Belgium |
| Comments: |
c'est une
belle histoire, vraiment très belle, j'espère que vous,
les parents de Bill, allez mieux et que vous réussirez
à nous faire reconnaiter nos droits a nous le
homos/bi/trans car des traitements comme ceux-la ne
doivent pas se reproduire! nous vivons a une époque ou
cela ne devrait plus éxister |
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Thursday, March 24, 2005 2:41:44 AM |
| Name: |
Heather
Blaskie |
| E-Mail: |
sagittarius_fire_tiger@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I am very
sorry about your son. I have a bisexual friend who is
made fun of all the time and i really do hate it. In my
eyes the bisexual's of this world make it not only fun
but interesting, girls my age can relate more to the gay
community and that helps us also to understand men
better. It is sad how cruel people in this world are it
seems that they have to always hate others to make them
selves feel better, and it is sad to say that the united
states is a proud country when the people act out like
this. I am very sorry and I hope that as the years go on
people will become more accepting to others no matter
what.
GOD BE WITH YOU. |
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005 8:48:48 AM |
| Name: |
kelvin |
| E-Mail: |
klvinl@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United States |
| Comments: |
I really
appreciate you work here, I think it will serve to many
for inspiration and as a good information source. |
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005 7:09:16 PM |
| Name: |
jody |
| E-Mail: |
kakalauni@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Netherlands |
| Comments: |
Hooray for
Billy!!! And your beautiful love and support for him and
gay people. I was very moved by your story. And wish you
loads of love and support. |
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005 5:57:23 PM |
| Name: |
caresite |
| E-Mail: |
john@foam.net |
| Homepage: |
http://www.darwinsando.net |
| Location: |
None Given |
| Comments: |
Just thought I
would pop in again - love your site - you've done a
WONDERFUL job - will be back often. I have put you in my
links - hope you don't mind. |
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005 4:38:44 PM |
| Name: |
Patrick Alan
Tonkin |
| E-Mail: |
patonkin@ntlworld.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
United Kingdom |
| Comments: |
Just to say
thanks.There but for... |
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Sunday, March 20, 2005 6:40:13 PM |
| Name: |
Chelsea |
| E-Mail: |
cheeeeeeeelsea@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Sydney,
Australia |
| Comments: |
Thankyou so
much for sharing your story. |
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Saturday, March 19, 2005 12:36:32 PM |
| Name: |
Tom C. |
| E-Mail: |
txtom56@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
http://home.comcast.net/~txtom/ |
| Location: |
Lacey,
Washington |
| Comments: |
Reading Bill's
story was very emotional for me. I wish I would have
been around here during that time so I could have shown
my support.
No person or family should ever have to endure such pain
from ignorance and bigotry.
I wish you and your family great strength for what I'm
sure is life long pain and suffering.
hugs to you all
-tom
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Saturday, March 19, 2005 3:18:58 AM |
| Name: |
Betty |
| E-Mail: |
betty@mygodisanalien.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Texas |
| Comments: |
Thank you for
this story. I am a straight parent, of all straight
kids, but I am the pres. of PFLAG in my town. I have
heard and seen many stories like this,from my friends,
and that is why I am with PFLAG, to help those that need
help, unfortunatly, the REAL people that need help, are
the haters, and they won't go for help.
I wish everyone love.
Betty |
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Friday, March 18, 2005 12:14:30 PM |
| Name: |
Racquel Ruiz |
| E-Mail: |
none |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Cathedral City |
| Comments: |
I am sorry for
what happened and I hope that soon these kinds of things
will stop because it is really unnessary. |
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005 5:43:59 PM |
| Name: |
Becca Wagner |
| E-Mail: |
bwagner024@insight.rr.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Reynoldsburg,OH
43068 |
| Comments: |
I have
attempted suicide. I am bisexual and life is so hard
sometimes, but reading Bill's story has made me second
think about attempting it again. |
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Monday, March 14, 2005 10:49:13 PM |
| Name: |
Romero |
| E-Mail: |
theothertesticle@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
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| Comments: |
like food
sickness, only better! |
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Saturday, March 12, 2005 11:59:02 PM |
| Name: |
Christopher
Largen |
| E-Mail: |
res1tc3k@verizon.net |
| Homepage: |
http://www.waronjunk.com/warning.htm |
| Location: |
Denton, TX
76201 |
| Comments: |
Thank you for
the beautiful work you do. Education will dispell
ignorance!
When you have a moment for a gut laugh, come check out
my homepage! |
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Saturday, March 12, 2005 4:08:34 PM |
| Name: |
Becky |
| E-Mail: |
spoiled_biotch102@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Pa |
| Comments: |
I never met
Bill and I never heard of him before I read this story.
I just wanted to tell you that this story has touched my
heart forever. The hatred for gays and bisexuals is not
needed. They are just like everybody else. Even though I
never met Bill, he will always be in my heart. Thank you
for sharing your story to the world to read. It truely
has affected my life. |
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Saturday, March 12, 2005 2:31:25 AM |
| Name: |
Jon S |
| E-Mail: |
docjunior25@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Indiana |
| Comments: |
I just wanted
to tell you your website sent to me by a friend saved my
mother alot of what you went threw I am 29 and lost my
job because I was gay not two days ago second time has
happened to me. My friend figured I was thinking about
ending it all so she sent me this site and said read it
and think of your mom I did and it pulled me back from
the edge thank you |
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Wednesday, March 09, 2005 3:39:56 PM |
| Name: |
Michael
Balkenhol |
| E-Mail: |
mikebalkenhol@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
State College,
PA |
| Comments: |
It is believed
that 1/3 of all completed suicides are queer youth... |
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005 4:11:44 AM |
| Name: |
androi8 |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Malaysia |
| Comments: |
loves and hugs
from Malaysia... |
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Sunday, March 06, 2005 10:27:29 PM |
| Name: |
Robert |
| E-Mail: |
dmxlords@webtv.net |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Frederick,
Maryland |
| Comments: |
Gabi God love
you for sharing such a part of your life to help other
people as a gay man myself i was very lucky to have a
suportive family unlike alot of gay people! I
can promise you tonight you and your Family and bill are
in my prayers! |
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Sunday, March 06, 2005 9:31:33 PM |
| Name: |
Charles |
| E-Mail: |
hnstskr4 |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Indiana |
| Comments: |
Like many of
those before me, I cried as I read your son's story. I'm
most sorry for your lose. I'm gay and hid it until I
turned 30. I came out the following year to my brother
and his wife, one of my co-workers, and my friends from
college. I can't relate to the hate that your son was
shown, but I can to the lonely feelings. Often there
have been times when I've felt isolated. I've heard my
own mother use words that belittle us. When I heard her
say those things, I remember crying for over hour.
Thanks for putting Bill's story out here on the net. |
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Sunday, March 06, 2005 5:07:25 PM |
| Name: |
terri wilson |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
las vegas |
| Comments: |
im really
sorry that this had to happen to you i used to be
suicidal and it took me a while to get over it i use dto
cut really bad and im really sorry that theres nothing i
can do to help you all i can say is that i hope that you
can hold your head up and think about it like this all
he ever did was love you and maybe all the people in the
world just need to be a little bit more understanding
because it had nothing to do with you that he killed
himself it was all just bad timing. And i am honestly
appologetic for your loss and i hope that one day you
can see the sun shine the way you used to. |
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Friday, March 04, 2005 4:50:59 PM |
| Name: |
david |
| E-Mail: |
dkematch@yahoo.ca |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
vancouver, bc |
| Comments: |
Suicide is
like realy tough, I my self have attempted suicide 8
times in my life time, I've injected gasoline, tried to
OD on 5 different pills in 2 years and stuck dirty
needles in myself to get HIV or any other STD.
I reaad the story and it's very touching.
I now know im not the only one out there who is being
hated for who they are.
World Peace will one day come? |
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Friday, March 04, 2005 3:01:03 PM |
| Name: |
Nina Rinnhofer |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Austria |
| Comments: |
Hello, I am
fiveteen years old and from Austria. Bill's story is
very sad. I`ve got tears in my eyes after reading the
story and I think, that I don't forget this story
anymore. Nina |
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Friday, March 04, 2005 11:04:49 AM |
| Name: |
Steve Schweyer |
| E-Mail: |
steve_schweyer@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Florida |
| Comments: |
Hello,
I just want to express my great feelings towards Bill's
mother and relatives. And let know that Bill was a great
person who was not afraid to speak for his rights. I can
relate to him in many ways and he is an excellent
example for may of us. |
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Thursday, March 03, 2005 8:07:02 PM |
| Name: |
jerome hines |
| E-Mail: |
jeromeghines@aol.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
alabama |
| Comments: |
God bless you
all .so sry for the loss of a great person,,i'll rember
ya'll in my prayers .and pray one day the world will
wake up and see what great addtions gay ppl are ..jerome
hines |
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Thursday, March 03, 2005 4:25:27 PM |
| Name: |
shawna
burciaga |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
joshua |
| Comments: |
I read the
story and i want to say how sorry i am. About 3 years
ago i lost my dad when he commited suicide, its very
hard to deal with. he over dosed & shot his self
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Tuesday, March 01, 2005 9:56:29 PM |
| Name: |
Maurice Moore |
| E-Mail: |
mmoor957@wssu.edu |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
winston-salem,
nc |
| Comments: |
I would just
like to say that am sorry for your loss and i think you
are a very strong person. when i was 17 i thought about
killing my self because i am gay. But somthing changed
in me and know i know that i must keep going and live no
matter what. when i read about your son i know that it
could have been me. this web page does help i makes me
feel like i am not alone. |
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Tuesday, March 01, 2005 9:22:31 AM |
| Name: |
La'shaunta
Dehon |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
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I am soorry
for what to your beloved child. I hope that you can
overcome this and keep your head up as well. Love you
and know that God will always be with you and your child
will keep watch over you. |
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Monday, February 28, 2005 10:50:19 AM |
| Name: |
Simon Finn |
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Ontario Canada |
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This was the
saddest and most emotional story i have ever read. You
are a brave person and i am sure your son is proud of
what you have done, you have turned a tradgety into hope
for many. Thank you so much |
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Monday, February 28, 2005 8:00:28 AM |
| Name: |
John |
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loon71957@yahoo.com |
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| Location: |
Niles,
Illinois |
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I am so sorry
for theloss of your son. He sounded as though he would
have turned out to be a asset to the world.
I am gay as well, and I wnet through a lot of
depression, and I am not sure How I got through it. I am
now 47 and still searching for happiness.
Good luck to you and your family.
God bless Bill. |
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Sunday, February 27, 2005 10:16:36 PM |
| Name: |
Laura Thiel |
| E-Mail: |
lb18@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
Olympia |
| Comments: |
Thank you for
sharing your story and working for change.... |
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Thursday, February 24, 2005 7:27:01 PM |
| Name: |
Gabi Clayton |
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http://www.youth-guard.org/gabi/respondex.html |
| Location: |
Olympia, WA |
| Comments: |
This new
guestbook was started on 2/25/05. Links to pages with
all the past responses to Bill's story are on the page
link above.
Thank you so much for signing my guestbook.
Love, Gabi |
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