Gabi Clayton's Guestbook - From 5/25/01 to 7/4/01

Note: This guestbook reads from the bottom of the page up. -- Gabi


  Wednesday 07/04/2001 10:41:15am
Name: Michael Macdonald
E-Mail: eagle4202@home.com
Homepage:
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Location: Vancouver Canada
Comments: Your story has touch me greatly as a gay man i had to endure much of what Bill went through. And FULLY support you and the folks that fight the negitivity of bieng Gay, bisexual, Lesbian,and transgendered,Ect....
Though I have never fought my self but have spoken out about the bashing that happens because we were born this way , the hate will always be there no matter what we do. I hope now that we are in the 21st century things will change for the better. But we as a people can try to stop the hate first we must put a stop to 1 Rev. Phelps from Topeka Kansas he is a man so filled with hate his actions are frightening..

With all my heart
Michael(Eagleclaw ICQ#117508226)



  Sunday 07/01/2001 10:26:19am
Name: Ray Sager
E-Mail: ray_sager@hotmail.com
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Comments: Gabi,

Nothing is more tragic in life than the loss of a loved one or a child. I just got done reading "Bill's Story" and I cried some. No parent should ever have to go through that. I think (and do not take this the wrong way) I think that this is what the gay bashers expect us to do: lay down and just die..kill oursleve and save them the troubble of having to deal with us. I was once like your son at one time..many times i wanted to kill myself because I knew the world would not change its views on gays and lesbians or bisexuals. However, something in me said: Why give the gay bashers the satisfaction of knowing that they just killed one more "faggot" and not at their own hands? It took a while..lots of therapy and support from my family and friends before I knew that I could harden myself against the taunts and the beatings...lots of work out time in the gym made it so i could fight back not just physically but also mentall and emotionally.I made it part of my creed that I was not going to be the victim of my fears anymore. And I am truely sorry about your son..it is tragic. I pray that one day we will live in a world where tolerence and diversity are taught and people understand one another. Keep fighting the good fight and it will all be rewarded in the end. My prayers and heart go out to you;



  Saturday 06/30/2001 11:01:49pm
Name: Christian Naranjo
E-Mail: century_xx1@hotmail.com
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Location: Guayaquil - Ecuador
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  Saturday 06/30/2001 9:34:47pm
Name: Joseph S. Ta;;ey
E-Mail: Oceanbreeze1978@aol.com
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Location: Erwin, North Carolina/USA
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  Saturday 06/30/2001 7:32:38am
Name: angel
E-Mail: angelsplace69@hotmail.com
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Location: australia
Comments: Im sure the pain you feel with your sad loss of Bill will over time ease.But the
fine words have helped spread the word,that we are all born equal and nobody has the right to take action over
somebodys being different.
Live and let Live,we can not bring Bill back but let us hope that the message will get passed on. Life is hard for young people to come to grips with and they need lots of support from all sources. The media can play a major role in reducing homophobia and getting
a positive message across.But they tend not to want to get involved......so please make use of the internet to get this message out loud and clear.....



  Thursday 06/28/2001 9:50:57am
Name: Dianna Marris
E-Mail: DMa6997370@aol.com
Homepage: see below
Homepage URL: http://not done yet+will be at homestead :in memoryof chris or momssunshine
Location: Oklahoma
Comments: A very good looking man.It don't matter what he was gau-bisexual he was still a man.He stood for what he believed in,and paid the price.Suicide is a silent killer.I pray Bill and Chris found each other.The life of a gay or bisexual is so very hard how could anyone think they choose to be this way.Who would choose to be gay /bisexual/lesbian.It is to hard a life for choosing.Chris to my knowledge was not attacked as Bill was but had been attacked,and now I wish I would have done something about it.I guess I was still in the inital shock of him being gay,and never heard of such things as hate crimes,unfortunately the one that attacked Chris suicided several years ago from my understanding,I also never gave suicide so much thought till it hit my home.I have had 2 uncles suicide,2 sister in laws,my grandaughters grandfather on her mothers side.But never gave it much thought till Chris.It is a silent Epidemic.Iam sorry I didn't mean to get carried away on this.May God hold you in the palm of his hand and protect all of those to hate crimes and suicidal thoughts.Lets stop the silence and violence.Hugs Dianna mom of Christopher Jack Marris 11/14/73-8/31/00 age 26



  Wednesday 06/27/2001 10:27:32am
Name: Allison Porter
E-Mail: allisonp@avalonconsulting.net
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Location: Washington, DC
Comments: Gabi -

I leared about your website from PFLAG and really enjoyed learning about you, your family and the incredible programs that you support!

Thank you!

Allison Porter



  Tuesday 06/26/2001 7:11:20am
Name: andy
E-Mail: madandycook@yahoo.com
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Comments: hey just surfed in dude fantastic webb page dude



  Monday 06/25/2001 12:46:47am
Name: Erik Rogers-Thompson
E-Mail: erikrt@hotmail.com
Homepage: Gay/Straight Alliance of Hellgate High School
Homepage URL: http://www.geocities.com/hellgatehighgsa
Location: Missoula, Montana
Comments: A very touching and eye opening story. I am a gay male in MT and have not experienced this hate. I hope I never will. My sympathy goes out to you for the loss of your son. What he did to end homophobia makes me proud. I also thank you for continuing his effort! Good luck with your efforts. Thanks again!

Erik Rogers-Thompson

  Friday 06/22/2001 11:43:19pm
Name: douglas reeves
E-Mail: twotoneskanker@hotmail.com
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Location: minnesota
Comments: hi gabi. i signed a guest book a while back after reading bills story. i read this story about once a month! i still cry everytime i read it! i went into the hospital in dec. and we watched a movie and i got to see you in it! i told everyone about bill and you and your family! i tell as many people as i possible! i printed it off the inter net and brought it to my school and passed it around so as many people as possible could read it and see the affects of gay bashing and depression and just things in general. i really love this story and its helped me through alot! im sorry you had to go through this and bill and you friends and family as well! my friends and family almost did too. but i read this and stopped my self! so thank you so very much! please email me when you have a sec! thank you and bill and your family again!
doug



  Thursday 06/21/2001 7:26:15am
Name: Norbert Wille
E-Mail: np.wille@quicknet.nl
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Location: THE NETHERLANDS
Comments: After reading Bill's story, words tend to be inadequate. Still after all these years intolerance against people with a diffirent lifestyle has remained. That doesn't mean we have to tolerate it!
I do think that Bill has been very brave and courages to be that open about his sexual orientation.
By putting his story on the internet you show the ulimate love and respect for Bill. I do hope that by putting Bill's story on the www you are able to open a dialog and are able to show the world that people are equal, no matter who they are of what they are.



  Wednesday 06/20/2001 10:36:25pm
Name: thomas michael burns
E-Mail: saxplaying@home.com
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Location: mich
Comments: i will like to send my deepes condestes to you as this tuch me very deeply . i was rape too by more then one mad
form the ages of 5 to 14
and was vetemens of hate craimes in high school

my paryes go out to you we must verve stop fiteing .



  Wednesday 06/20/2001 4:49:47pm
Name: Dr. Michael H. Radell
E-Mail: mradell@home.com
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Location: Sarasota, Florida
Comments: I was deeply moved and touched by your story about your son, Bill. My heart goes out to you and I, too, share your hopes that your story will do some good in a crazy world.
I am an orthodontist here in Sarasota, Florida, for the last 27 years. I am also gay. I started out "straight", getting married and adopting a daughter when she was eight weeks old. I have been out of the closet and divorced since 1979, and am on good terms with my former wife. My daughter and I share an excellent relationship, and I thank God for that.
I am active in local and national causes, such as ALSO for Gay Youth here in Sarasota and am a member of the Federal Club of the Human Rights Campaign. I applaud your courage and caring. I am so sorry about your son. Just reading his story has made a difference in my life.
I recently placed safe sex brochures in my office, in order to save some lives and avoid much heartache in others. I see that I haven't gone far enough. I give you my word that I will place ALSO for Gay Youth pamphlets along with the safe sex ones, so to avoid any more unnecessary tragedies.
I thank you with all my heart.
Michael H. Radell, DDS



  Wednesday 06/20/2001 4:05:51pm
Name: Mark
E-Mail: markme59@mindspring.com
Homepage:
Homepage URL: http://www.geocities.com/markme59
Location: Winter Park, FL
Comments: Dear Gabbi -

You have great fortitude to do what you have done to honor your son Bill. I'm sure he looks down from Heaven every day and smiles. Who knows, maybe he's pointing you out to the others up there right now.

You have done such fine work with the page. I hope you don't mind, but I shared the link to Bill's Story with others. The more people of any orientation should read it. I will be placing the link on my homepage as soon as I finish this guest book entry. And I hope others will also share the link with everyone they know.

Take care & God Bless,

Mark

  Wednesday 06/20/2001 2:00:36pm
Name: Andrew
E-Mail: imnotbob@angelfire.com
Homepage: Andrew's Weird Code
Homepage URL: http://www.angelfire.com/weird/weirdcode
Location: TX
Comments: Wow. I knew hate crimes were a problem, but this site has just made it all the more obvious how serious a problem they are... All my friends use "gay" and "homosexual" as words to express hatred towards people, or even things and events, that's just how my community is, though I wish it weren't. I'm a 19-year-old Bi-sexual man, though I'm not open about it...in fact, I've never told anyone aside from people I've met online. I think a lot about "coming-out" but I fear that in such a small ultra-conservative town such as the one I live in I would only bring suffering to myself, I realize I can't hide from the truth forever (nor do I wish to), but fear is a very powerful form of dissuasion... I wish there was something I could do to change the way things are...



  Wednesday 06/20/2001 12:32:34am
Name: Michael G. Mueller
E-Mail: paulmike@flash.net
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Location: Dallas, Tx
Comments: I just read your truely heart wrenching story, after having discovered it thru a link from Kyle's Bed and Breakfast comic page. My heart, my thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. I truely wish and believe that Bill's spirit has found peace. And he now knows that not all individuals in the world are as hate filled as the man that assaulted him, or the teenagers that beat him.
I am a gay man in my 40's and have been lucky enough to have also had a loving and supportive family. Please keep up your good work.



  Wednesday 06/20/2001 0:12:32am
Name: Kelsy
E-Mail: mmmgirl@home.com
Homepage:
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Location: Oregon
Comments: Hi. I read they story, and it was so sad...I can't believe ppl are still so stupid as to hate someone because of who they love.
oh and just ignore the guy who posted last. He has no life, and never will.



  Monday 06/18/2001 10:33:32pm
Name: Timothy McVeigh
E-Mail: I GOT WHAT WE WANTED
Homepage: THE BEST SITE ON THE NET!
Homepage URL: http://www.ALLGAYSWILLDIE.com
Location: IN YOUR HEADS FOREVER.....
Comments: YOUR SON DID THE RIGHT THING FOR EVERYONE. HE KNEW WE ALL WERE WAITING FOR HIM TO BE PRESSURED UNTIL HE DID. GREAT JOB GABI, YOU DESERVED IT FAG



  Sunday 06/17/2001 9:42:47pm
Name: kelli
E-Mail: little_susie_sunshine00@hotmail.com
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Location: small town, PA
Comments: i must begin by saying that i am so very sorry for your loss...i read bill's story, and it brought me to tears. when will people learn to accept those who are "different"?? it's a shame that there are people so ignorant and full of hate that they would torment and harass another person based only on his or her sexual orientation. this kind of hatred must be stopped, before another innocent life is snatched away...before one more person gives up hope and simply decides not to cope anymore.

  Sunday 06/17/2001 9:14:59am
Name: Christina Roark
E-Mail: Deficient_grrl@hotmail.com
Homepage:
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Location: Antioch,CA
Comments: Hi...I just wanted to tell you that Bill's story brought me to tears. I am a 15 year old lesbian and I know what it's like to be discriminated against. I am with you 100% on fighting back and ending the hate. I try to learn as much as I can about hate crimes and discrimination against GLBTQ's because I truely believe that knowledge is power..especially if you use that knowledge to your advantage. Someday I'd like to get into politics and change some of the laws that make it easy for people to hurt us and get away with it. 20-30 days is not a lot considering that some kids in my classes have gotten longer sentences on drug charges and those kids caused someone to take their life. I truely hope that I can change things someday, for myself, for your family, for all the other "Bills" in the world...and for the world itself. I know this is long and drawnout but I just wanted you to know that your story inspired me.
love,
christina



  Friday 06/15/2001 6:59:19am
Name: Abi
E-Mail: abi2k2001@hotmail.com
Homepage:
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Location: Wales, UK
Comments: Hey i just read the story and now i realise the standard of hate crime. I have a friend who openly admits to being bi and has recently had trouble with hate crime. The story touched me so much i was near tears. Im sure my when my friend reads this it will encourage them to fight for wot they believe and not make the people who do the crime win.
Thank you so much again
Abi



  Thursday 06/14/2001 2:53:12am
Name: carlo F. Carillo
E-Mail: cacacarillo@yahoo.com
Homepage:
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Location: Philippines
Comments: Hello, My name is Carlo Carillo, Im 27 y.o, I filipino & Im openly gay, I am the Executive Director of an L.G.B.T. Non- Governmet service org. in our province & we work towards respect & recogn8ition of the L.G.B.T. community not only in our locale but together with other L.G.B.T. orgs, strive to do so in the entire country.We have programs to educate The community about hate crimes. I cried so hard reading about bill & even if were miles apart let me hug you for all that you are doing for bill & the L.G/B/T/ community,I myself have problems dealing with the very harsh & cold facts of life of being gay, I accidentallystumbled upon your site, when I clicked search for suicide on the net, I am now suicidal & very depressed, I have tried it before & lived to tell about it, Im feeling really dark again & lonely It is so hard to face the reality of being alone & lonely. I am so proud of you & your big heart & thye work that you do for my community, again my hugs to you.



  Wednesday 06/13/2001 10:39:46pm
Name: Alex
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Location: California
Comments: Beautiful but depressingly sad story. My heart goes out to Bill's family. Sadly, the general hate in the world towards homosexuality is what makes life a living nightmare for gays.



  Wednesday 06/13/2001 9:59:57pm
Name: Junior @ Franklin Highschool , Seattle
E-Mail: Niabrown@Uswest.net
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Comments: I'm doing a project on teen suicide for my language arts class. I've never taken suicide so seriously until I read Bill's story. It's so deep, sad, emotional but true; It's reality! And if we continue to allow society to make us feel like we should keep things bottled up inside things are just going to get worse. I applaud Bill for having the courage to be so open with his sexuality; it can;t be easy! I'm going to take my first step on the healing of this by sharing Bill's story with my classmates. Thanks for giving me the inspiration to help others.

  Tuesday 06/12/2001 12:24:38am
Name: George Friese
E-Mail: gfriese@prodigy.net
Homepage:
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Comments: More and more stories ike this. It's like visiting the Viet Nam Memorial.



  Tuesday 06/12/2001 10:20:45am
Name: Clark & Doug Heffner-Matthews
E-Mail: mail@clark-doug.com
Homepage:
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Location: Washington, DC
Comments: Nice page, I found it in the PFLAGpole (spring 2001). THANK YOU!



  Saturday 06/09/2001 7:19:35pm
Name: robert bryce
E-Mail: rbryce@tbi.net
Homepage:
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Location: largo fla
Comments: this has touched my heart deeply God bless and may He go with you and be with you always always is beyond forever.



  Saturday 06/09/2001 5:39:52pm
Name: Chica
E-Mail: proud2bchicana@yahoo.com
Homepage:
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Location: Chicago, Illinois
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  Friday 06/08/2001 11:36:23pm
Name: rob detrick
E-Mail: honeyjar69@yahoo.com
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Location: tulsa oklahoma
Comments: thank for your story u r truely a gift from God and so was Bils life i had a to cry when i heard u speak friday in tulsa than came home and read your site your bill was a leader a fighter he spirit lives with all gay bisexaul trangernerd people everywhere my pray for your family is that God use your story to change a hateful world in to a world u understanding a accaptance of all people may God bless u always keep the light burning in pflag always bye write soon thank u

  Thursday 06/07/2001 6:23:27pm
Name: Pablo Gómez
E-Mail: pagocas@yahoo.com
Homepage:
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Location: Barranquilla (Colombia)
Comments: I am a 32 year-old gay college professor in a country where hate and intolerance of a few seem to silence the voices of thousands of good, hard-working people. I don't know exactly why I was looking up the word suicide in the Internet, but thank God I found your site. So I really appreciate your words here because they comfort me. You said "Silence is where the hate grows", but it's necessary to re-state this as "This site is where your love (and Bill's) grows".

Pablo Gómez



  Thursday 06/07/2001 12:30:10am
Name: Melina
E-Mail: sour@distant-stare.com
Homepage: Insomnia [fiction writings]
Homepage URL: http://www.distant-stare.com/dazed
Location: Pennsylvania
Comments: I found this page from my friend, who had looked at pages dedicated to young people that committed suicide.

I began to cry as I read Bill's story. I'm still sniffling a little now.

I know someone who is gay. He is a beautiful person. Fun, intelligent...

This world is just wrong. I wish that in my life time I could see the end to the hate.

I see things like this happen every day. Why is it that the teens of my generation want so badly to destroy anything different?

I'm very sorry about what happened to Bill. I hope that his story will help others to see.

His spirit lives on.

Melina, age 14
Pennsylvania



  Monday 06/04/2001 9:03:46am
Name: G.Clyborne
E-Mail: gclyborne@yahoo.com
Homepage:
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Comments: I'm Verry sarry for your lose what happend to your son should of never happend. it just gos to show that the so called normal people are afraid of people being difrent.I't is sad to know wat a not so good saciety has ben created.



  Monday 06/04/2001 6:42:31am
Name: Dave...aka....boydave666
E-Mail: boydave666@hotmail.com
Homepage: WORLD of boydave666 (PG-ask parents)
Homepage URL: http://www.geocities.com/bdv666/
Location: Portland Oregon
Comments: I was deeply touched by your page,,,My deepest sympathies on your (and the worlds) loss!...very well done!...will be sharing it with my friends and assoc,.More families like yours would go a long way towards making the world a better place for all...I am an adult (46yr gay Male) but grew up in the midst of extreme homophobia ,and therefore found myself on the brink of suicide many times...this site hit home for me in a very positive way!!!...THANX



  Monday 06/04/2001 4:03:48am
Name: christophe
E-Mail: idleman99@hotmail.com
Homepage:
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Location: uk
Comments: Touched, moved, thanx for sharing.
xxx

 

  Sunday 06/03/2001 1:23:25pm
Name: James R. Rodriguez
E-Mail: jamesx@emailaccount.com
Homepage:
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Comments: I came upon this site while I was surfing online. Before this time I had been fearful of what my family would think of me if I ever told them that I was gay. Now I see that it does no good for anyone else to keep it hidden. I see that I have to change that. After all, "Silence is the ultimate weapon of power." -Charles deGualle.

"Ten people who speak make more noise than ten thousand who are silent."
-Napolean Bonaparte

If I can get ten other people to help me in my charge, maybe one man can make a difference.



  Saturday 06/02/2001 4:12:46pm
Name: Lucy
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Comments: I think you are an amazing woman Gabi. Your son's story touched my heart. I have been fighting depression for 3 years and Bill's story has made me think carefully about life.

I wish you peace and solace.



  Saturday 06/02/2001 9:47:57am
Name: Kathy Wade
E-Mail: cabininthewoods1@home.com
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Comments: After just reading your sons' story, I must tell you that I am touched. Not only as a mother, but as a survivor of depression and as a person with an open heart and true concerns for the happieness of others. How kind of you to share. Love heals...Pass it on!



  Saturday 06/02/2001 2:24:26am
Name: Natalie
E-Mail: stained@xsinet.co.za
Homepage:
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Location: South Africa
Comments: Quite touching.



  Thursday 05/31/2001 1:55:52pm
Name: Ashley
E-Mail: RaveBabe0069@aol.com
Homepage:
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Location: Ohio
Comments: i almost comiited suicide becouse of people and there hateful words...ur page helped me alot.

THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH,
~~~~ASHLEY~~~~~~~

  Tuesday 05/29/2001 7:00:38am
Name: VG Bucu
E-Mail: vgbyme@netzero.net
Homepage:
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Location: NYV
Comments: Thank you for sharing your son's tragic life and knowing that we are no longer alone in the strugle. I am an ex-chair of the NYC Chptr of GLSEN. Your site was emailed to me by the New York State Safe Schools Commision. Tho I have not lost anybody to suicide I do know the pain of losing a much loved one unexpectedly....

Peace, Prayers and Love

VG



  Monday 05/28/2001 2:15:25pm
Name: Paula R. Roberson
E-Mail: robby@tnaccess.com
Homepage:
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Comments: Absolutely fantastic.



  Sunday 05/27/2001 9:09:21am
Name: Randey Michelle Gordon
E-Mail: SantaFeMs7@aol.com
Homepage:
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Location: Santa Fe, New Mexico
Comments: As a transgender activist, I see all too many stories like this.
It breaks my heart, and I extend my sympathies to you and your family.
Bill lives on in the hearts and minds of those who knew him, and loved him.
Coping is very difficult, and the overwhelming feeling of despair is almost constant.
As a male to female transsexual, I know just how awful it feels on a daily basis.
I have dedicated my life in dealing with GLBT issues through the organization I founded here in New Mexico, S. U. R. E. {Sensitivity, Understanding, Respect, through Education} as a way of getting the message of non-discrimination in schools.
Please know that Bill is at peace, and watching and helping us all, whether consciously or unconsciously.

Love, Peace, & Solidarity,
Randey Michelle Gordon



  Friday 05/25/2001 11:43:30pm
Name: Scott
E-Mail: DancerRave@aol.com
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Location: Wilmington, NC
Comments: I know not any words that encompass the emotions I feel after reading your story. I have signed this guest book before, but I always seem to come back. This story is so tragic yet an inspiration to straights, gays, anyone. I am gay myself and living in a world such as depicted in this story is a horrifying thing! However writings such as this need to be instilled in each of us. I cannot begin to know the hurt you feel Gabi. But I know that my heart goes out to you. I am so glad that you are keeping your sons spirit alive through a page such as this. Please keep in touch for you are truely an AMAZING woman! Minorities such as gays need people like you to look up to. People who are accepting no matter what. Please keep in touch!
With Tears,
Scott

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